xxcharityx on Xanga

"I do almost everything in heels.	My wedges I save for housework."

xxcharityx
read my profile sign my guestbook Name: liza State: Massachusetts Metro: Boston Birthday: 8/10/1986 Gender: Female Occupation: Student Message: message me AIM: xxcharityx Member Since: 1/4/2005

SubscriptionsSites I Read
Subscribe to xxcharityx Get trial subscription

Blogrings
Fight Squad-Breathless previous - random - next The Honor Ring -- The Honor Academy's BlogRing previous - random - next .awakened. previous - random - next shake it, let's dance previous - random - next I ♥ London previous - random - next I smile and laugh at everything previous - random - next

Posting Calendar

\|<< oldest \| newest >>\|
view all weblog archives

Monday, December 01, 2008

Rest.less

It's the end of the day,
when everything has stopped and your left alone with your thoughts,
no meaningless action to run and escape them with
you sit still and attempt to process what exactly it is that you accomplished for your day
was the long hours and frustrated smiles worth it?
another day lived
theres so many words but nothing to say
for if i were sad, i would express sadness &
if i were happy, i would enjoy bliss
however its the nights like tonight
the nights of nothingness that you can't bear
the nights where you can't distinguish where it is you stand or how exactly you arrived there
So you're lost in yourself
& confused within time
and you begin to wonder if people see you with blind eyes
all doubt slips in through the door
so tonight you'll lay restless
hoping for tomorrow, to bring you something more.

But you O Lord understand & see me with eyes wide open.

4:27 AM - 16 views - 2 eprops - 1 comment - email it

Friday, July 18, 2008

How far have I wandered?

I sit here and ponder, how far have I wandered from the truth of love pure and sweet? Of what tree is this fruit I now eat? Some say it's of poison that I partake and it's for my own sake that my spirit they break with their words sharp as a sword I fight to ignore but these voices pierce to my core Forcing me to ask questions of which answers I fear cuz nothing's clear so YOU tell ME what's for real! What I see..or what I feel? Cause what I feel is so blind Heart's detached from the mind Mind's detached from the heart of me the part of me that won't allow me to see past your shadow here where I lie lost in wondering eyes I am hypnotized by the slightest touch of your fingertips that softly linger round my lips forcing me to ponder How far have I wandered?

I can't explain what he holds in his hand but like the wild it calls to me Ravenously hungry, chasing bread I cannot eat and a cup that holds no drink It's all an illusion I'm usin' my heart to think cuz I'm losin' my mind and it's the next best thing! But, what good is a heart that's been spread too thin and tainted by the fingerprints of too many men? Too many secrets undisclosed A heart fed by false hopes now left carelessly exposed is a compromised treasure whose pain cannot be measured And, the same hands that did uncover leave it alone and unclothed

I've wandered so far that from where I stand I still can't tell what he held in his hand that would cause me to build upon shifting sand Cause me to falter and forfeit my land See, how often I find myself looking to man rather than my Creator to define who I am! And HE watches in jealousy as endlessly I search for intimacy in vain because..I suppose it seems easier to attain. In attempt to cover my own nakedness so afraid to be exposed, I am clothed in shame. But, these garments are not mine and the must not, will not, shall not remain!

Oh, how far have I wandered and who shall lead me home?! Who shall restore my sight and who shall feed my soul?! For the touch of the Master will I lie and wait like the sand for the sea longing for his water to wash over me If just for a moment I'll soak him in till the return of his tide oh how long has it been since I knelt at your feet, entirely consumed? No walls.. no defenses.. just me and my wounds Here where your arms are outstretched and you hold in your hands something far deeper than I could ever understand something so wide it's always where I am, No matter where I fall it's always where I land. And, however far I've strayed, I know I'll find my place at the foot of a tree where blood was not spilled but rather poured out free so Lord pour over me calling me back from this place where I've wandered to the place where we meet No longer to roam, it's just us..and then I'll know that I am home.

2:00 AM - 15 views - add eprops - add comments - email it

Friday, May 25, 2007

Catch me on Facebook, life is to busy for weblogs.

4:01 PM - 43 views - 4 eprops - 2 comments - email it

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Home sweet home.

Time goes by fast in the city. Late nights & early mornings, seven malls in three days i'm ready for christmas shopping to be over. I was late for the christmas eve service at church tonight i just had to get that latte. I tried to sneak into the back twenty minutes later, i figure back row no one will catch me. Nowhere to sit because the house is packed, i end up moving seats 3 times before i find one, hugging everyone and their mother during the process. Two minutes later one of the deacons comes up to me with a candle he asks me to be apart of the candle lighting service. Of course i wanted to say no and i was hoping he'd catch the drift by my facial expression but before i could say no he slapped me on the back and said, "Okay great thanks," and walked away. So there i go completely a mess walking down the aisle to the stage praying that i wouldn't fall in front of the whole congregation.

It worked out a christmas miracle.

Merry Christmas from the T.

2:39 PM - 37 views - 44 eprops - 31 comments - email it

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

attitude is life.

growing up takes time.

i look around and everything around me points to His goodness.

i'm learning how to be an individual, it's funny, the things we need to learn it seems that there should be some things we just know. I'm waiting, watching, trying to figure out how to walk this journey, it's to easy to become overwhelmed, to want to run in the direction of everything comforting. My vision is being purified, my mind tells me to look at life through the natural, bills, work, school, family being miles and miles away. My heart speaks of the spiritual, finding peace because daily my God shows himself faithful. I've come to the end of my flesh. I'm going to follow what gives me life. i'm going to enjoy the journey. I sat the other day thinking, 'this is going to be my story', someday i'll tell my children of the places i traveled, how i experienced life. I often i wish i could just learn things fast so i could stop making mistakes.

Working in the world is so hilarious, it's like no other experience, ha-ha. People, you just gotta love them because if you don't, they'll make you crazy. i've been there two weeks and i've been promoted from a server to receptionist/hostess/assistant to Director of Food and Beverage. I do it all, it's funny where a smile and the Holy Spirit can take you really fast. I feel over my head in things but i'm going to chose to laugh. Laughing at days to come, why try and figure everything out when the Lord is so willing to show me. ha-ha.

The other night i pulled a Home Alone. I don't like being in the house by myself, maybe i've been influenced by to many movies. I put the music on extremely loud and danced around the dinning room while i ate dinner. It worked for McClully Culkin. (who can really spell his name?)

Pruning won't happen unless you surrender, it hurts, but it makes you beautiful.

i will not depend on others for my happiness, i will not depend on others for my destiny.

i will trust in the one who owns my thoughts.

"The Lord Almighty is the one you are to regard as holy, he is the one you are to fear, he is the one you are to dread, and he will be a sanctuary;" Is8

lu's getting married.

2:18 AM - 3 views - 32 eprops - 16 comments - email it

Next 5 >>